According to a friend of mine-that is what I am doing this morning. Dusting, vacuuming, cleaning bathrooms and mopping floors, at my OWN house! It’s about time!! So Cassie, this ones for you! Well, this post at least……..ha!
oh, and on another note-why does throw up end up on the carpet and NEVER on the tile?! Thanks Boomer
what I can’t have. Sometimes I get into this mood and I think it’s just me. Come to find out, it’s not just me……it’s life! I can remember back in the day when Brody was oh so young and so needy. I would count the minutes before his nap so that I could have some “me” time. Hmmmm, I wish that I could have those times back now. I do, and I realize that people say we shouldn’t look back, but I do. I do look back and wish I could have known what I know now. Time FLIES!!! I don’t care if I only had one child, I was busy. And I can hear you mom’s with more kids shaking your heads right now (ok, I can’t really hear you shaking your head, but you get my drift!) I was mostly alone in Panama while Rod worked all the time and I had no family around me for 3 years. It was a very lonely time and I can remember wishing that it was different. I was young and I had no idea that having one child wasn’t a big deal. It was all so new to me so I guess it doesn’t matter because you don’t know what you don’t know! Now I wish I could go back and perhaps have another go at it. I better stop wishing and start living each moment to the fullest. I know, what a concept, right?! One day I will remember these days and I will wish them back. I don’t understand it all and the older I get, the less I know. My time with Brody is certainly changing and I know that life goes on.
So I say “know” alot in this here post but it’s my random scramble for the month. These days have been filled with sweet little people and I love them. I love having my house full of kids and hearing them giggle. I love having people at my table and the madness that comes along with it all. My patience has grown and I suppose that comes along with time and experience. Oh, I do wish I could go back and do it all over again-I do!
Look at these sweet little peep in my house……….lucy
but I have a feeling that I need to let go just a little more. Hard to believe that he is going to be a senior this fall. I will have to scan some of the pics of him when he still needed me to help him up or give him a hand…….obviously that’s not a requirement any longer.
Here he is in Africa with Ben as they were recording the weight and height of each child at the school. 400 + kids and I guess they were busy!
There are still more pics that I need to “borrow” from folks so that I can create a memory book of sorts for Brody. We will see how soon that will happen as summer is here and we truly do not have a schedule.
That’s what I do on here. Lately I haven’t because honestly, I just can’t be that honest with everyone. I believe I am completely emotional and my hormones get the best of me. I have always felt like that was a lousy excuse for a bad mood or bad behavior but it’s starting to fit my lifestyle all to well. So on to a better note………This is what I got to do yesterday with my favorite son
vague but true…….really struggling with my heart and my thought in a big way these days. Poor choices made long ago are coming up to show their fruit. I have tried hard to be a good parent and a good example. Tried hard to not let my poor choices affect my son. I felt like I have done a fairly decent job and perahps I have, but right now it just doesn’t feel that way. Disappointments are a part of parenting, right? Hmmmmm, not really dealing well with that right now.
but not as long as Brody’s day! He took off yesterday to head to Liberia, Africa. They made it all the way to Brussels and the last I heard they were stuck there. I don’t know if their flight to Monrovia was cancelled or what the details are but the word is that the next flight isn’t till tomorrow. Now of course there is a time difference so I don’t know if they are ready to board the next plane or not. This is tough as I have no control over any of it and I also do not have any information. So I sit here missing him and sending out lots of hugs and prayers.
I shed some tears over the thought of Brody leaving our house for good some day. Not being able to call him or text him at all is making it more difficult to deal with. It’s different when you know that you can reach out and get some sort of input, but this time apart more than any other, drives the pain home. Just feeling somewhat sad about the realization of it all and I know that it will be fine but for now, I miss the little creep!
can’t you tell?!
